onewingshadow

Life just sucks.  




The end.

long time no post and this isn't going to be very long. 

 

 

yeah.  Short sweet and to the point.  I'm alive and I know how much that pisses some people off but there isn't anything anyone can do about it legally. 

Its been one full year for Mary and Me. One long happy year. Sure we've had our hard times and our personal struggles but to get through it all together has meant a lot to me and my family. Some of you know that struggles that I've gone through and some that I have caused and some of you know the struggles that Mary has had to undergo. Through it all its been wonderful just knowing that she is always there and I will always be there for her.


For me family has always been a degrading word. Even though no matter what it has always been a powerful word. I may not have the best family in the world but I most certainly don't have the worst. I've been thinking a lot about the future and where I fit in it all. I do want to get married some day and have 2 or 3 kids. Maybe more. I do want a job that I love and hobby that is constructive for my children. These are all very vague concepts that must be thought out thoroughly. And well I've been thinking very hard on them. I do believe that one day I will ask Mary to be my wife. And I believe that we will have beautiful children that will grow up to be great Adults and have children of their own. I do want grand kids to spoil in the late future you know. But even if that is all I've figured out I still need to know where we should live and not to mention what job will I have to support the family. Don't get me wrong I would love to be the stay home dad but I need to atleast establish myself in a career.


I don't want to lose myself in thought here since it is very special occasion.

Hey Guys. I haven't had a lot of time in the last 3 months but now that i quit my job at the factory I have a little more free time. I have learned much while working there. I have also gone through a whole lot as well. I really don't have too much to say to certain people only because I am really shocked but maybe I knew it would end up like this. Oh well. Life happens sometimes but you just have to keep going on your track. If your path should ever cross theirs again then go from there and work with it. I don't want to hold a grduge.

long time no post. Well. I am fine for the most part. A lot has happened but really at the same time nothing has happened at all. I guess what I'm trying to say is that a lot changed one year ago for me and it hasn't changed from that too much. Well I've changed a lot and I keep changing daily. Always changing something small about myself to make myself a better person.


Well. Thats the update.


To the D and D guys (and gals), GET ME YOUR CHARACTERS SO I CAN PLAN THE REST OF THE STORY!!!! I really can't do anything until you guys finalize your decision on characters.



peace

Its Tuesday. I really should be in bed right about now cause its like 6:30. I have to get up by atleast 2 in the morning. Been killing myself just to keep a job. It pays well. Better than any job I'll ever get starting off, especially with only having a High School diploma. I've just been really busy here lately. Sleep, Work, eat, and something for about 1 and half to 2 hours. Thats my life in a nutshell.


I ordered a mimiture from Rider's Hobbies and it came in today. I really love it. Tomorrow I'm going to paint all the figures. That is if I know what colors to get.

ok. well I am tired and need rest cause i'm a lunatic and i have no life. hopefully I get the weekend off. if not i hope I aleast get Sunday off. I'll need one day to recover at the very least.


Gotta go and sleep. Sorry to some of you I haven't talked to. I've wanted to but one thing or another stops me from doing so. Like what am I going to say. To others. Fuck you. and to the rest. I wish you the happiest and best of all beginnings in your college years. please note that I am really saing Fuck you to 2 specific people. the only people that know who I am talking about should be the ones I am talking to in this aspect.


Ok. Now I'm just Gibbering. I'll go now. We'll go together.

I'm in pain. I'm hurting from other things. Confused about some. Confused about myself. Wanting out when I am having a hard time getting in. wanting closure from an event that hasn'teven taken place. just wanting really to rot away. I wonder though who would come and piss on my grave?

leave a message.

Its like 4:20 in the morning and I am hungry





















Not to mention a little confused about something right now.

It has been a while since my last update. I just gave blood and I'm doing alright. I'm fine that is. I've already managed to confuse one person with another. that was interesting to say the least. I don't know what else to do right now. I could try and go home but rush hour is just picking up, or dying down. I don't know which. I'll go a safe time. Plus I have to get gas. oy. I love Mary so much. We've been going out for like 7 months now and it has been amazing every step of the way. anywho. So yeah. I'll update when I more sane that what I am now. Bye

1. ROCK STAR NAME (first pet and current street name): Tubby Woodside

2. MOVIE STAR NAME (grandfather/grandmother on your dad's side, your favorite candy): Vernon Twix

3. "FLY GIRL/GUY" NAME (first initial of first name, first two or three letters of your last name): D Now

4. DETECTIVE NAME (favorite animal, favorite color): Tiger Silver

5. SOAP OPERA NAME (middle name, city where you were born): Kyle Royal Oak

6. STAR WARS NAME (1st 3 letters of ur last name, last 3 letters of mom's maiden name, 1st 3 letters of ur pet's name): Now Ins Sco

7. JEDI NAME (middle name spelled backwards, your mom's maiden name spelled backwards): Elyk Snikle

8. PORN STAR NAME (middle name, street you grew up on): Kyle Main St.

9. SUPERHERO NAME ("The", your favorite color, the automobile you drive): The Silver Trans AM


HAHAHAHA. Thanks C! hahahahaha Tubby Woodside sounds more.....not going there.